andrew gn: spring rtw 2010

hey loves!

i'm quite sorry about being so depressive yesterday. like i said, i'm just feeling a bit overwhelmed. today i've been looking through the spring rtw 2010 collections, and i stumbled upon andrew gn's collection.

I WANT IT ALL.

97% of it i would wear without question. that black satin skirt above is so amazing! those black stovepipe pants? simply great. the simplicity of the two looks above is another part of their allure.

the collection was diverse, though, and all of it was brilliant!

see? completely different. i REALLY love this look. i find no faults. the bright yellow tank with tuxedo-bib detailing? gorgeous. floral skirt? feminine. fishnet tights? just sexy enough. strappy green heels? excellent. i'd perhaps add a bracelet & some earrings to tie it all together. perfect spring/summer look.

i love cocktail dresses. these are BRILLIANT! i love the green color of the first one and the cinched waist & strapless neckline. the saturated blue color of the second one is absolutely beautiful, as well as the cinched waist and adorning bow. (do you see a trend? defined natural waistlines and bows... hmm.)

now, you wanna talk dream prom dress? oh, it's this one. it's STUNNING. it's like a perfect, longer mixture of the two cocktail dresses.

may i say i again?
I WANT IT ALL.

oh, also, why am i looking through spring 2010 rtw instead of fall? because i'm sick of cold weather & these looks are much more appopriate for the coming seasons. :D

how do you feel about these looks? a fan of andrew gn? let me know!

with love!
rachel. <3

music!monday -- radiohead & placebo (again).

hello darlings!

it's music!monday~

i've been feeling very down-tempo lately. most of this music is actually pretty depressing. good, but depressing. i think i've been listening to it because i'm so exhausted -- i swear to god i'm running off coffee and willpower sometimes.

anywho, onto the music:



creep -- radiohead. i love radiohead, and i really love this song.



my sweet prince. ah, another placebo song. i can't stop listening to them! this song is so beautiful; it gives me chills. it feels so hopeless and beautiful and it pretty much leaves me beyond words.

so, dears, how do you like the music?

with love,
rachel. <3

one word: confusion.

(from january 5, 2010.)



you looked at me in barely-veiled confusion. "what?" you inquired, repeated.

"i am dying."

"bullshit." you didn't believe me.

i barely believed myself.

your anger was to hide your fear, and your rage at me even thinking of succumbing to death. (though i suppose anger & rage could be considered the same.) however, "everyone dies."

"not us. we are young. we are immortal."

debra porter fashion show 2010.

hey loves!

oh man, i love sundays. 90% of the time they're the one day out of the week i have nothing to do, unless i go to church. today is one of those beautifully lazy sundays. :)

these are the pics from the local fashion show i did a few weeks ago. the store i modeled for has formal dresses, mostly. the majority of these pics are backstage, but i have a few a family friend took of me walking.

i didn't particularly like the way this one fit me. it clung to my torso & was a bit too long. however, everyone else loved it, even if i stumbled in it. xD

the blue ballgown is one i'm considering to wear for prom... isn't it gorgeous?

give me your opinions, darlings!

with love,
rachel. <3

recap: all-state band tryouts. & prepster purple+khakis.

hey dolls!

oh my goodness, what a whirlwind of a week it has been!

we had all-state band tryouts on tuesday. they were... emotional, to say the least. my audition was decent -- my scales were okay, even though i had to play my c scale an octave higher than i'm used to. my prepared pieces were GREAT, if i say so myself -- something just came over me & i've never played the first two that fast or that well in the entirety of me playing them. my third piece was as good as i could have hoped for. but the sightreading... it broke me. i sounded like a fool. in fact, i walked out of that room almost crying. it was so humiliating, especially because i've been working so hard on that!

fast forward to the posting of the chairs -- and more importantly, who made all-state. we were sitting by a table near where they post the results. everytime a paper came, i'd run to the other side of the table, worried sick. there wasn't a chance i had made it, i was sure. however, they posted the flutes, i ran to the other side of the table, and i hear my friend sam say, "OHMYGOD, RACHEL, YOU MADE IT! BLUE BAND!"

i collapsed in the floor, crying on sam's shoulder. i was so amazed and so relieved. nothing beats that feeling of accomplishing that. absolutely nothing.

i ended up making 5th chair district, which means that from our district, i'm the first blue band flute. it's exactly what i made last year. haha. however, this means i have to choose between all-state band and all-state choir. but, honestly, there's really no choice -- i have to do band. it's so much more rewarding because i'm nowhere near as good at playing my flute as i am at singing.

but anyway, i'm pretty sure you're not too interested in all that rambling! i've got an outfit for you -- it's an old one, but i rather like it.

i feel like such a prepster in this outfit! haha. white shirt is generic, khakis are american eagle (and a bit baggy -- i'll have to look for a tighter fit). shoes are from goody's. purple&white scarf is from pac sun.



all bracelets were gifts. the three-layer sphere bracelet is navy, in case you can't tell.



purple shoes! my english teacher rather likes these, which i find quite endearing. i happen to love these shoes as well! they're kinda my trademark.



close up! yes, i'm such a narcisstic person. ;)

comment me dearies! even if it's just something small; i love feedback.

with love,
rachel. <3